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Before
I Forget
You

Some loves transcend memory itself.

A queer speculative love story about memory, identity, and finding your way back to the people who feel like home. Read it chapter by chapter, or let it be read to you, and never lose your place.

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Before I Forget You by Bree Pear — hardcover edition: two figures on a dock beneath an aurora reaching between two hands

“Grief doesn't always arrive with death. Sometimes it shows up when the world forgets how to hold you.”

Rowan, Chapter 1

01 // The Story


What would you give up to remember who you are? And what would you fight for, to be remembered?

Rowan dances her grief out loud. Every night, from a small apartment in Chicago, she livestreams her body back to life for strangers who need somewhere to put their sorrow. Avery draws theirs in private. A non-binary artist in Seattle, unlinked in a world wired into everyone's skull, Avery maps the things they can't say into sketchbooks no algorithm will ever read.

One drawing crosses the distance between them. Then a year of late-night calls, shared playlists, and a chosen family they name the Constellation. By the time they finally meet in person, at a cabin by a lake, Rowan and Avery already know the truth their bodies are slow to admit. This is home. This is the person.

Then Avery starts to forget.

Small things first. A conversation. A face. Then whole days, peeling away backward. The diagnosis is a virus that steals memory in reverse, and it is coming for everything Avery fought to become. Seattle. Their art. Their name for themselves. And eventually, Rowan.

There is a treatment. It works by erasing ten years completely. Take it, and Avery wakes as a seventeen-year-old who never left the small town that couldn't see them, never became an artist, never met the woman who knows all their broken places by heart.

Some loves ask you to hold on. This one asks whether you can begin again.

Before I Forget You is a queer speculative love story about memory, identity, and the people who feel like home even after you've forgotten the way back.

02 // The World

Ten years after the last quarantine.

The pandemic waves are over. The cities are reopening one lit window at a time. The government calls this the Return to Normalcy, but reopening is not repair, and everyone is carrying grief the announcements never mention.

FILE // YEAR-2044

2044

A decade after the world held its breath, life happens through ring lights and livestreams as much as in rooms. Connection has never been easier to transmit, or harder to feel. From Chicago to Seattle, people are relearning what it means to be a body in a room with another body. Everyone insists they're fine, and almost no one really is, not yet.

FILE // NIRA

NIRA

The Neural Integration Regulatory Authority: the government body that oversees neural technology and public wellness. It speaks in soft blue announcements about resilience and safe reintegration.

It also sends compliance notices to the few citizens who remain unlinked, reminding them of their civic integration status.

FILE // NEUROLINK

The NeuroLink

A disc of brushed metal at the temple, pulsing blue in time with your heartbeat. It records your days, reads your stress, messages mind-to-mind, and remembers everything, so you don't have to.

Nearly everyone is linked. Avery Sage is not. In 2044, keeping your thoughts to yourself is the most radical thing a person can do.

03 // The Constellation

Separate stars, bound by gravity.

Five strangers met in an online grief group during the pandemic years, and never logged off. Jules named them the Constellation. They became each other's emotional infrastructure: the group chat as sacred space, chosen family as orbit.

Rowan BlakeLinked

The dancer

Rowan Blake

she/her · 30 · Chicago

A professional dancer until an injury ended one life and a livestream began another. Now she teaches the grieving how to return to their bodies, while quietly negotiating with her own. Magnetic with strangers, soulful with her people, fluent in everything except asking for help.

Avery SageUnlinked

The artist

Avery Sage

they/them · 27 · Seattle

A digital artist who draws the pieces of themselves they're finally brave enough to claim, in physical sketchbooks, with real ink. The only unlinked person they know. Soft-spoken and intense, allergic to being archived, fluent in everything except being seen up close.

The Intuitive

Jules Morales

she/they · Brooklyn

A tarot reader and astrologer with a premium NeuroLink tuned to record her dreams. The emotional anchor, the one who named them the Constellation.

The Analytical

Theo Kim

he/him · Los Angeles

A film editor who hides tenderness behind sarcasm. Asks the hard questions, always from a place of care. Curates playlists that say what he won't.

The Exuberant

Maya Patel

she/her · Austin

A stand-up comic whose Link broadcasts her feelings in vibrant color. Joy as a survival skill. No boundaries, all heart.

The Grounded

Imani Rhodes

she/they · Detroit

A community healer and herbalist with big-sister energy. Steady, practical, and the first to notice when something is wrong.

…and Miko, Rowan's golden retriever mix, who recognizes Avery from a year of video calls before they ever walk through the door.

04 // The Author


Bree Pear

Bree Pear (they/she) is a queer, non-binary author, founder, and creative director who has spent their whole career building places where people feel less alone: brands, communities, and now a novel.

They grew up in Springfield, Illinois, knowing from the age of four that they didn't fit neatly into boxes. They built Only Humxn, a queer-owned brand that treated radical softness as power, and they have rebuilt their life from scratch more than once since. Chicago is the city that gave them room to start over, and it's where this book begins, in a future close enough to touch.

Before I Forget You is their first novel. It was written for chosen family everywhere: for everyone who has been afraid of being forgotten before they were fully known, and for the people who stay and remember us anyway. Bree lives in Chicago with their partner and a chaotic joy of a dog named Pippin, and writes in memory of Mika, the soul-dog who saw them through the rebuilding years.

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